Schizophrenia:
Having a “schism” or a split in your mind.
I think I might have “low-key” schizophrenia. When I write, I am no longer me (ERIC KIM). I feel as if when I write I can speak as an authority … sort of like a voice beyond me. Certainly I am grounded to reality and do not see strange apparitions, I don’t hear voices nor do I sense any weird stuff. I am not spiritual. I don’t believe in religion (literally). I’m a pure empiricist, I like logic, I like hard facts, and I am a huge skeptic.
My dad had “high key” schizophrenia (he heard voices, told me that Lucifer talked to him, and my dad would say he saw signs of the devil or Lucifer when he zoomed into pixels on my website or whatever). He went on strange rabbit holes on Wikipedia and said that he has to “save a village” or “save a town” (kind of like Nietzsche when he fell into madness). In fact my dad read Nietzsche and Zarathustra.
So I wonder … perhaps my great fortune is having been born to my dad (high key susceptibility to schizophrenia) and my mom (the most warm, kind hearted, and social person and ultra grounded to reality) and this made me the ideal hybrid. I wonder … great artists, philosophers and thinkers are part “autistic” or “asbergers” or “schizophrenic” (Kanye West) … yet can still function well in society?