{"id":48500,"date":"2017-04-29T18:00:52","date_gmt":"2017-04-30T01:00:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/?p=48500"},"modified":"2017-04-29T18:00:52","modified_gmt":"2017-04-30T01:00:52","slug":"how-to-conquer-depression-with-photography","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/2017\/04\/29\/how-to-conquer-depression-with-photography\/","title":{"rendered":"HOW TO CONQUER DEPRESSION WITH PHOTOGRAPHY"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"45244\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/basic-composition\/eric-kim-photography-composition-fibonacci1\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/03\/eric-kim-photography-composition-fibonacci1.jpg?fit=2000%2C1325&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"2000,1325\" data-comments-opened=\"0\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;5.6&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;GR II&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;1489755907&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;ERIC KIM PHOTOGRAPHY&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;18.3&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;800&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0.025&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"eric kim photography composition fibonacci1\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/03\/eric-kim-photography-composition-fibonacci1.jpg?fit=800%2C530&amp;ssl=1\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/03\/eric-kim-photography-composition-fibonacci1-800x530.jpg?resize=800%2C530\" alt=\"eric kim photography composition fibonacci1\" width=\"800\" height=\"530\" class=\"alignleft size-large wp-image-45244\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/03\/eric-kim-photography-composition-fibonacci1.jpg?resize=800%2C530&amp;ssl=1 800w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/03\/eric-kim-photography-composition-fibonacci1.jpg?resize=768%2C509&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/03\/eric-kim-photography-composition-fibonacci1.jpg?w=2000&amp;ssl=1 2000w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Dear friend,<\/p>\n<p>I want to write you some words of encouragement if you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re dealing with depression.<\/p>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<h2>Don&#8217;t listen to me<\/h2>\n<p>First of all,<\/p>\n<p>I have no idea what you are going through \u00e2\u20ac\u201d nor am I going to pretend to know what you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re going through. But I know that depression is one of the shittiest things you can feel in life. The feeling of ennui, purposeless, and not having a reason to wake up in the morning. When I was in high school, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve had a few suicidal thoughts\u00e2\u20ac\u201d if I ended my life, would others appreciate me more, or would they notice me?<\/p>\n<p>I suffered very mild depression in high school\u00e2\u20ac\u201d and had a few suicidal thoughts here and there, but in my mind, it wasn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t anything serious. I was fortunate enough to have a loving community\u00e2\u20ac\u201d supportive friends, a phenomenal mother, purposeful community-service activities (working as a student intern at a Korean-American community center, being a Boy Scout troop leader), and being active in my local Korean-Catholic church (St. Andrew Kim in Oakland).<\/p>\n<h2>Let&#8217;s do this together<\/h2>\n<p>I have no idea what the \u00e2\u20ac\u02dccure\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 for depression is \u00e2\u20ac\u201d but I certainly know ways that we can work together to <em>conquer<\/em> and overcome our depression, and sense of purposeless in life \u00e2\u20ac\u201d using photography as our self-therapy device.<\/p>\n<h2>1. Finding your life\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s purpose with photography<\/h2>\n<p>I think one of the biggest reasons we suffer from depression is because we feel like we have no purpose in life. No reason to wake up in the world.<\/p>\n<p>The world looks like a fucking shitty place, and there is nothing we can do to fix it. We feel helpless. We become disempowered.<\/p>\n<p>But I feel that we can use photography to find purpose in our life.<\/p>\n<p>For me, I have found my life\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s purpose through photography \u00e2\u20ac\u201d to use photography as a tool to empower others. I find great and deep purpose and meaning in life, when I encourage others to conquer their fears in life\u00e2\u20ac\u201d using street photography as a tool. I have an American friend who has conquered his PTSD (after being in the war) using street photography to help him feel comfortable around strangers, and to re-socialize.<\/p>\n<p>I have spent the last 10 years or so, fascinated with human behavior, psychology\u00e2\u20ac\u201d and the mind. But to me, all modern psychological notions are weak. I still think it goes back to philosophy \u00e2\u20ac\u201d a lot of modern cognitive therapy is pretty much a more modern version of <a href=\"http:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/stoicism\">Stoicism<\/a> \u00e2\u20ac\u201d learning how to overcome any situation in life.<\/p>\n<h2>2. Find a social purpose for your photography (then share it with others)<\/h2>\n<p>You can find your life\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s purpose through photography in many ways.<\/p>\n<p>First of all, find your social purpose. The talent or the gift you have\u00e2\u20ac\u201d that you can share with others. I feel the easiest way to conquer depression is to find something meaningful, useful, or helpful you can do to help others.<\/p>\n<p>For example, I have a friend who has a gift for writing. And she loves photography too. And she has learned to bridge the gap\u00e2\u20ac\u201d she loves to write about her photography, and photograph what she writes. Her photos and poems have the spirit soul embedded in them. Her photos and poems uplift my soul. Her photos and poems help me find beauty in everyday life (like <a href=\"http:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/street-photography-101\">street photography<\/a>) and help me overcome any pessimism I have in life. And by her <em>sharing<\/em> her photos and writings\u00e2\u20ac\u201d she is able to help empower others.<\/p>\n<h2>3. Help the disadvantaged and elderly<\/h2>\n<p>Another idea\u00e2\u20ac\u201d use photography as a tool to help out the disadvantaged or the elderly.<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Helping Underprivileged Youth to Succeed Through Photography: Phoenix High Photography Program\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/iYfqcuKpgM8?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve <a href=\"http:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/2010\/10\/26\/donate-phoenix-high-photo-class\/\">taught a photography class at Phoenix High<\/a> \u00e2\u20ac\u201d a continuation school in Los Angeles in 2010. Many of the students were in gangs, slanging drugs, and had parents (often both) in jail. They felt lost. They had no hope. But photography gave them a tool for self-expression. For self-empowerment. And by teaching them the tool to empower themselves, I felt great purpose and meaning, and great joy in my heart.<\/p>\n<p>I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve also (with the help of my friends Neil Ta and Josh White) taught a photography workshop at a senior center in Toronto. The senior and elderly are some of the most depressed and lonely. Their families never call them. All their friends around them are dying. I felt great happiness to share my joy of photography with them \u00e2\u20ac\u201d and it isn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t even just photography \u00e2\u20ac\u201d it is sharing your heart, love, and time with them.<\/p>\n<p>If you have a passion for photography, but feel depressed\u00e2\u20ac\u201d one of the best ways to conquer your depression is to share your joy of photography with others. Even if you don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t consider yourself \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcgood\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 in photography or \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcexperienced enough\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 \u00e2\u20ac\u201d if you have a love and passion for it, that is all you need. Because passion is infectious. Passion gives others the zest for creative self-expression. And as long as your photography is just a (little bit) better than those you are teaching\u00e2\u20ac\u201d you are a teacher. And not only that, but to be humble\u00e2\u20ac\u201d remember, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153When <em>one<\/em> teaches, <em>two<\/em> learn\u00e2\u20ac\u009d (when you teach, you learn from your students).<\/p>\n<p>You don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t do nothing big. Help your little brother or sister photography. Help teach your mom or your mother-in-law learn photography. I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve gained great happiness teaching my mom how to make better photos. I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve gained great purpose helping empower others to make better photos \u00e2\u20ac\u201d by keeping everything on this blog \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcopen source\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 and by sharing my \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcsecrets.\u00e2\u20ac\u2122<\/p>\n<p>You can do the same. Don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t be closed. Be open. Share your insights, tips, and your secret sauce with others.<\/p>\n<h2>4. Photography blogging as self-therapy<\/h2>\n<p>For a while I went through some dark stuff\u00e2\u20ac\u201d writing about my past, especially my history with my dad. I suffered a lot of trauma from my dad as a kid and teenager\u00e2\u20ac\u201d verbal abuse, blackmailing, and this constant sense of guilt (didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t help that I was raised on that Catholic guilt too).<\/p>\n<p>But for me, photography and blogging was a form of self-therapy. By writing and blogging about what I suffered (and doing it in a very public and open, uncensored, raw way) \u00e2\u20ac\u201d I felt like I was able to shed my old cocoon \u00e2\u20ac\u201d and was able to become reborn as a beautiful butterfly.<\/p>\n<p>I feel many of us suffer depression because we are afraid to share our pain and suffering with others. But honestly, everyone (no matter how fortunate) have dealt with pain, death, and suffering in their lives in one way or another.<\/p>\n<p>So for me, writing, and talking about photography and my personal experiences is a way to <em>connect<\/em> with others. For me to <em>connect<\/em> with the rest of the community \u00e2\u20ac\u201d and for the community to <em>connect<\/em> with me. That gives me a sense of purpose.<\/p>\n<p>I wrote about photographing death\u00e2\u20ac\u201d at my grandfather\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s funeral. I wrote about how I constantly meditate on death \u00e2\u20ac\u201d my death, the eventual death of my loved ones, my mom, and my family. I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t feel this as something depressing\u00e2\u20ac\u201d rather, uplifting. Because I know that my life is limited and will eventually end\u00e2\u20ac\u201d I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t waste time. For example, if this is the last thing I ever write before I die\u00e2\u20ac\u201d I will die happy.<\/p>\n<p>So as a practical tip, I would recommend starting your own photo blog.<\/p>\n<p>If you want a free photography blog, just make one through <a href=\"http:\/\/wordpress.com\">wordpress.com<\/a>. And after writing about your personal experiences in life, what you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re dealing with, add some meaningful photographs as a way to illustrate your emotions, thoughts, and feelings. If you want a paid (more controlled) option \u00e2\u20ac\u201d signup via <a href=\"http:\/\/bluehost.com\">bluehost.com<\/a> and install <a href=\"http:\/\/wordpress.org\">wordpress.org<\/a>.  The paid option will allow you to own your own website domain (firstnamelastnamephoto.com) and will eventually allow you to have more control, and no advertisements.<\/p>\n<p>I far far far recommend starting a WordPress blog instead of just on Facebook or whatever\u00e2\u20ac\u201d because you have more control. Facebook, you become a slave to the algorithm. And you start to outsource your self-esteem via likes and comments. For me on <a href=\"http:\/\/wordpress.org\">wordpress.org<\/a> \u00e2\u20ac\u201d I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve disabled all my comments and statistics. Because I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t want to out-source my self-esteem via how many views or comments I get. And I also feel that writing is a selfish endeavor \u00e2\u20ac\u201d I write many of these things (also) for myself.<\/p>\n<p>And when you write\u00e2\u20ac\u201d my personal recommendation is to <strong>not edit.<\/strong> Just check for basic spell-check. Don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t care about grammar. As long as you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re getting the message across, that is good enough.<\/p>\n<p>Also, don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t force yourself to write or blog. Only do it if you want to. And if it helps.<\/p>\n<p>If you need some advice on blogging, read these <a href=\"http:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/blog\">blogging tips<\/a>.<\/p>\n<h2>5. Create a community<\/h2>\n<p>One of the reasons we suffer depression is because we lose contact with fellow friends and a local community. A lot of modern life is waking up in a box, eating your breakfast out of a box, stepping into a box with 4 wheels, and driving to your box office, working on a digital box, then driving home in your box stuck in traffic with many other boxes, then turning on another digital box with flashing lights, then smoking a joint or taking a pill and going to sleep \u00e2\u20ac\u201d and starting the process all over again.<\/p>\n<p>I feel for your pain \u00e2\u20ac\u201d to me, this is worse than slavery or anything.<\/p>\n<p>But \u00e2\u20ac\u201d regardless of our shitty lives, we can always find meaning. I know that finding an online community helped me a ton \u00e2\u20ac\u201d in terms of helping me improve in my photography, and finding my style and purpose in photography. I thank the early black and white forum at Fredmiranda.com and the early days of Flickr (the \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcGrit and Grain\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 community), and many of my \u00e2\u20ac\u02dconline\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 friends. They taught me everything I learned.<\/p>\n<p>I also found great purpose finding other photographers (in real life) in photography. I loved to go out and shoot with other photographers, because half the time \u00e2\u20ac\u201d we\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re just talking about real life. And enjoying coffee together. And enjoying drinks together. It wasn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t about photography \u00e2\u20ac\u201d photography was just a bridge to help connect us as human beings.<\/p>\n<p>When I worked at my old office job, a friend helped me organize a office photo club. And it was great. Every Friday afternoon, we walked around the office block together\u00e2\u20ac\u201d and made photos. Some of us with DSLR\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s, some of us with point and shoots, and some of us with smartphones. And we had simple assignments\u00e2\u20ac\u201d only photograph triangles for the entire day, or the color red. It wasn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t a competition \u00e2\u20ac\u201d it was a form of creative self-expression, to take away the dread of everyday life.<\/p>\n<p>So you can start your own community, or join another community. Use meetup.com to find some other like-minded individuals in whatever genre of photography interests you. Or just find 1 other friend or human being that shares your interest. 2 people is enough to have a \u00e2\u20ac\u02dccommunity.\u00e2\u20ac\u2122<\/p>\n<p>For an online community \u00e2\u20ac\u201d start a chat-room group with friends via Facebook Messenger, Whats app, Line, KakaoTalk, WeChat, or whatever \u00e2\u20ac\u201d and share photos with your friends. Share a photo, and just ask your friends, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153Keep or ditch?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d This will help you get some direction and feedback in your photos.<\/p>\n<h2>6. Make portraits of yourself<\/h2>\n<p>A lot of us deal with self-image issues. If this is your issue, make self-portraits of yourself. And you don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t need to share them with anyone. My buddy <a href=\"http:\/\/oggsie.com\">Oggsie<\/a> taught a \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcselfie school\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 with the modern art museum (TATE) in London \u00e2\u20ac\u201d and it dealt with issues of self-identity.<\/p>\n<p>If you hate having your photo taken, it means that you probably deal with some sort of self-confidence issues with your image. So learn how to make portraits of yourself, and learn how to overcome those feelings.<\/p>\n<h2>Conclusion<\/h2>\n<p>Ultimately I feel that depression is an opportunity for you to find your purpose in life. Obviously if you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re feeling depressed in life \u00e2\u20ac\u201d this is your brian telling you that you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re feeling a lack of purpose or direction in life.<\/p>\n<p>So don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t see depression as the enemy. Depression is just a signal in your brain telling you to change something in your life.<\/p>\n<p>Some things to do:<br \/>\n&#8211; Walk around more, and make more photos in the streets. Treat street photography as walking therapy, to find beauty in the everyday.<br \/>\n&#8211; Shoot street portraits, and talk to strangers on the streets <em>before<\/em> making portraits of them. Smile really big, and give them a handshake (or fist bump) after making their portrait. This will bring you great happiness.<br \/>\n&#8211; Start a photo community (either offline or online)<br \/>\n&#8211; Help those less fortunate than you \u00e2\u20ac\u201d empower yourself by empowering others.<\/p>\n<p>Be strong,<br \/>\nEric<\/p>\n<p>Learn more: <a href=\"http:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/stoicism\">STOICISM ><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Dear friend, I want to write you some words of encouragement if you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re dealing with depression.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":45244,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[17],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-48500","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-posts"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/03\/eric-kim-photography-composition-fibonacci1.jpg?fit=2000%2C1325&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48500","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=48500"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48500\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/45244"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=48500"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=48500"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/erickimphotography.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=48500"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}